"Umm... Ma'am? Ayos lang po kayo--" Agad akong tumayo at naglakad-takbo paakyat sa room ni dad. No matter how fast I try to climb the stairs, I can't. My knees feel weak. "Ma'am!" sigaw ng isa sa mga maids. Humawak ako sa railings. Gosh... I can't handle this. I can't take all of this. "Ma'am... magpahinga na lang po muna kayo." "N...o..." I mumbled while gripping firmly on the railing. I tried carrying my weight paakyat. My knees are still weak but... I don't care anymore! "Ma'am... sige na po..." Hindi ko sila pinansin at patuloy na naglakad paakyat. By the time I maaged to get in front of his room, I left it open kanina kaya tumuloy lang ako rito. I looked around. So the police already checked everything? Since... dito nangyari yun. In his own room. She killed him. I can't believe someone in my family would go that far... dad... I hate her. Eversince. All she did was to get my dad away from me for her selfish reasons. Tapos ngayon ganito pa? What the hell?! Bakit sa akin pa nangyari 'to? I mean... do I deserve this? Is it because I'm a spoiled brat? Is it because I'm stubborn as hell? Why? WHY DOES THIS THING HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME?! Now I'm left alone again. Dad... I miss you... I love you. Akala ko ba magmi-meet pa tayo? The camera broke... but it shouldn't mean I can't see you anymore right...? Camera...OMG... "The damn camera boy. It is said that the pieces of evidence are inside." Pieces of evidence... camera ni dad... Kung yung video na pinakita sa tv yung tinutukoy nilang 'evidence', how the hell it was handed to the police after masira nung camera? My head hurts just by thinking about it. Naupo ako sa chair na nasa room and looked at his desk. I hugged the table. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kahit na gusto kong umiyak, tears won't come out. I want to let it all out, but I can't. I want to kill someone so bad, but I can't. That's it, I can't do a thing. I should've known, para hindi 'to nangyari. Kung pinakinggan ko lang sana siya, baka nandito pa siya. Siguro punishment 'to sa akin. I don't deserve a thing... Hindi ko man lang sinulit yung time namin... no. Dapat pala hindi ako sumunod sa kaniya at pumunta sa New York. I miss him, so bad. Dad... Dad! Bakit? Bakit lahat na lang kinuha sa akin? I have nothing now! One moment I was happy, then everything turn into this. Ganoon ba ako ka-sinful to deserve all of this? Is it really my fault...? "Argh!" I smashed the table with my hand. "Dad... I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" I screamed. I hope this is all a dream. A part of a bad dream I will never want to think about after waking up. Dad... I want to see you. Napatingin ako sa baba ng table nang may narinig akong tumunog. What is it now...? Nag-squat ako at pumasok sa ilalim ng table. My eyes widened. What the hell is this? May compartment right below the desk! It is small and yung narinig kong tumunog, it seems like it opened. Ipinasok ko ang kamay ko dun. I can feel something smooth. Feels like a paper to me. I pulled it out. It's a brown sealed envelope. I wonder why is it kept in here? What is this, dad? "Ma'am?" "Ah--gosh!" Sigaw ko nang mauntog ako sa desk. I massaged my head and umalis na sa ilalim ng desk. "Ano pong ginagawa niyo diyan ma'am?" she asked. She is standing by the doorway. Napatingin ako sa envelope na nakita ko at inilagay yung sa likod ko. "Ah... nothing. Why are you here?" I asked back. Why am I even hiding this envelope? "Ah oo nga po pala! The driver is downstairs. Pupunta raw po tayo sa hospital malapit dito to talk about the arrangements regarding Mr. Ty's... death." she looked down. Parang may kirot akong naramdaman sa heart ko after hearing that word. It makes me guilty... na wala akong nagawa. "Anyways, yung sling bag ko pala? I haven't seen it anywhere..." I need to have my phone pa pala! "Nasa baba po, ma'am. Tara na po," she said and walked out of the room. Matapos akong makipagusap sa mga doctors, I requested a visit to my dad. He is now in the morgue and they won't let me in now. It's been two days and they needed to take action. I talked to them about how a burial is the proper way to do things. I want to see him, atleast. Naglakad na lang ako papunta sa isa sa mga comfort rooms. I washed my face and grabbed my phone from my sling bag. I should probably call him now... My heart is pounding in my chest as I search for his number. Hindi ko kabisado kaya sa call history ako tumitingin. Last time he called me was when I was in the apartment... I redialed it. "Gosh... what do I say to him now? He helped me get here... and--" "The number you have dialed does not exist, please check the number or dial directory services." What... what happened?! Bakit ayaw na? I tried again but the same thing happened. I sighed. I don't know what to do in this situation. In everything that's happening in my life, to be honest. I just wanted answers from my dad, pero ganito ang nangyari. No one would guide me what to do... Ibinalik ko na ang phone ko sa bag ko nang may makapa ako. Paper? Kinuha ko iyon. Ah, yung envelope kanina I looked around the comfort room at wala namang tao so I opened the envelope. I'm getting a feeling that this is extremely important. Nakatago sa secret compartment eh. Isa pa, baka may about kay dad dito kahit papaano... I opened it and I found documents. Legal documents... From the very top of the first page, something is written: Last Will and Testament. Agad akong kinabahan. So... may ganito talaga si dad? Maingat kong ibinalik yun sa envelope at hianwakan. Baka malukot pa 'to 'pag nagstay sa bag! I need to talk to someone about this! Pero sino? Lumabas na ako ng comfort room but I saw a commotion outside. "Whose going to inherit everything? This is a problem since I don't think there's a will Mr. Ty left behind." "You can't just assume that!" "Anyhow, magulo talaga. His wife is in jail and his daughter--" Naglakad ako palapit sa kanila. They all wear formal attires. "...is here." Umm... they all look professional... I'm just a freaking college student! "Excuse me, regarding a will, I found my dad's Will of Testament." Their faces enlightened. "You should file that in court to check it's validity, iha." my tita said. My family owns the hospital kaya majority ng mga kasama ko rito ay relatives ko. It just hurts me knowing that some of them, just wanted to make sure they will get something from my dad. I sighed. "I will take things from here, Daliah." I turned to face the familiar voice. Uncle? What is he doing here now? "I heard what happened. I'm glad you found your father's will. Even though I don't particularly like you for your attitude, I must do my duty." His duty? Anong sinasabi niya? "The reporters are outside. It is shown on the television the problem of who's going to be the next head of the combat hospital. I will fix the legal matters here." "Wait, what do you mean?" I asked. I'm confused as hell now... "I'm the executor of his will. We need to file a petition on the court for probate of the will. On the hearing date, the court will proceed with the probate ofthe will and distribute the estate to the heirs accordingly. There." I rolled my eyes. No need to emphasize my ignorance in this matter. Gosh. So, I needed to go through all of this too? It's alright, para kay dad naman. As far as I know, the deceased's wishes are written in a will. I'm not his chosen executor so I don't know if everything will be executed, but I trust that since uncle is the only person he talked to during my stay in New York, he will do good. I just hope na hindi na niya ako hate. I feel kinda guilty about the threat I did to him last time din... dad. I will settle things too. For you.