This really sucks... ang tagal magloading! Tumingin ako sa kitchen. Yeah right... those plates are talking to me... later na kayo! Magloload din 'to. This day isn't getting any better. It's the night now though... natapos ko na yung ibang designs but I still need to design some other marketing things... Having a lunch with him kanina is one of the worst... Come to think of it, after the things he did... I'm still staying here. Hindi naman niya ako sinaktan of any sort... Awkward lang talaga. Ayaw kasing magsalita pwede naman. Argh! I'm just going to borrow his! Ayaw talaga nito! Tumayo na ako mula sa couch na inuupuan at lumakad papuntang room niya. I stood there, my knuckles inches away from the wooden door... I stared at his door. My heart is beating like crazy! Isa pa, seeing his face... those ocean blue eyes of his... it makes me forget how weird of a guy he is. I froze in my place nang bumukas ang pinto and there he is... his eyes... gosh! "You need something?" he voiced out while focusing intently on his laptop. "I... I... can I borrow y-your... laptop? The one you lent me... I-it's not working." GOSH! Why am I being like this?! He just walked past me papuntang living area. He did something on the laptop I was using. "You know, k-kailangan na kasing matapos yun today..." I added. This heart won't stop racing! It feels hot too... the hell? Kakaligo ko lang! "Sige, I'm already finished anyway," he responded while walking to his room. Kinuha niya yung jacket niya and then naglakad palabas. "Where are you going?" I asked. Tahimik lang siyang napatigil sa paglalakad. Nakatalikod pa rin. WHY DID I EVEN ASK IN THE FIRST PLACE? GOSH. "Grocery." He answered while putting his shoes on, still his back on me. Wait. I thought sa akin naka-assign yun? I mean, he's the one who'll cook right? "Hey, diba aking task 'yan?" I asked. Mamaya sisihin pa ako nito sabihin hindi ko ginawa. He stood up and faced me. Those glaring eyes of his! "After what happened?" he said as he went out of the door. Suddenly, I felt the hard, cold metal pressing against my left side... Dad... did you actually sent those men? Dahil ba makulit ako kaya kailangan ng ganoon? Pumasok ako ng room niya at naupo sa swivel chair niya. I looked up to the white ceiling and sighed. Those men seemed like they really need to get me for some reason... custody daw. The hell I need custody for? Nung tinanong ko sila, si dad daw talaga nagsend sa kanila to get me. Why aren't you talking to me instead, dad? Bakit niya pinutol yung connection namin? I can create a new account but it will be useless if he won't talk to me... or baka hindi siya yung gumawa? Maybe it's a trap? NO. Argh! Hinarap ko yung laptop niyang nasa desk. It is black and ang maganda, touchscreen. Woah, I can edit easier using this... Inopen ko na yung Photoshop and started my work. I can't forget that moment... para bang tumigil nung pumunta siya sa akin that day. I'm still curious as hell kung paano niya nalaman kung nasaan ako. Yung number ko nga alam niya rin. Stalker ba siya?! Gosh... working and thinking about those things... Basta, 'pag natapos ako rito at may naginvest sa idea niya na ito, dapat may part ako. By then, I can leave this apartment and this country. Kahit ano pang sabihin ni uncle or kung sino... I won't stay here, duh. Muntik pa akong makidnap nung nakaraan... I still doubt na from dad yun. That's right. They want me to stay here too.. for what reason? I sighed heavily. Wala akong matatapos nito eh. Break muna. I minimized the application. Hanap na lang ako games. Mayroon naman siguro siya... wait. Tinitigan ko yung wallpaper niya. It's a woman hugging him. The woman has a long brown wavy hair. They look happy... is she his fiancee? Wait ito yung nagalit sa akin last time?! Yung break na raw sila? Woah, it's not my fault ha... it's their freaking miscommunication. Isa pa, he's the one who brought me in this place. Tinitigan ko pa ulit yung wallpaper. They look happy here... I wonder why he's not bringing her up. Nung una sinisisi niya ako but then he stopped mentioning her. Ano naman? I don't care, duh. Those brown wavy strands of hair... they remind me of the day when I was happy... being able to do what I want, that is. Naalala ko pa na yung photo na yun ang may pinakamaraming likes sa insta ko! Teka, siya ba yun? Omg! I quickly stood up and ran to the living room. I scrambled things in my slingbag to get my camera. I looked through all my photos... 'di naman ako paladelete kaya baka nandito pa yun. This is dad's so may hindi pa ako nagagalaw na ibang files here... There! Nang makita ko yung folder ko during that time, binuksan ko yun. I scrolled through the photos and there, I found it. I viewed the picture. There are two people. A man and a woman. Yung girl kaparehas ata nung nasa laptop? I walked to his laptop. I looked to his laptop and back to my camera. They are the same freaking person! Pero sa camera ko, iba yung kasama niya. That day na naging client ko sila, she's with a man to take pictures for their marriage proposal... they know my family daw kaya sa akin sila pumunta... yung date when I took their photos... sila na ba ni Marcus nun? Ito yung bago ako pumunta ng New York. It was last year? Hell, ang tagal na nun! Gosh... That day when I saw him sitting on the bench... smiling, talking to his phone. Tapos nung nag-away sila nung girl, break na raw ganoon... They've been together? While this girl... engaged na? What a messy relationship! Anyways, why would I care? It's their life... Agad akong napatayo nang marinig ang boses niya. "Y-you're here early...?" I asked. Argh. Sabihin ko ba? He is looking around. "My wallet, I left it here." he answered while looking around. He even turned around. Gosh this guy... Gusto ko siyang tanungin... Napatingin ako sa kaniya. His back is on me. May napansin ako sa pocket niya. This guy... ginulat niya pa ako rito. "Ayan yung wallet mo ah," I said as I point to his back pocket. "Huh?" kinapa niya yung pocket niya. "..Oh. I guess I'm leaving then." he said. Tumingin pa siya sa akin bago tumalikod. I rolled my eyes. He didn't even check himself kanina? Naglalakad na siya palayo. Should I ask? Pero ano namang reason? I don't want to be accused of something! Duh! "Marcus," I called out his name. He faced me. "... this woman on your wallpaper, is she your fiancee? The one that came to me last time..." I continued. He walks towards me and looked at his laptop. "Well, ex-fiancee that is. Why?" Those eyes of his. Curious why I asked? "Bakit 'di ka na nagsasalita about her? I mean, I'm no friend by any means, nacurious lang. You even got mad at me before kasi sabi mo it's my fault..." He looked away. "That day before you kissed me, I already knew that we need to split up. I just want to see her face for the last time..." Now I feel horrible. I mean, it's for help purposes no. Besides, the girl was cheating no! So hindi ko na kasalanan kung bakit sila nagbreak ah! It never was! "Okay. Here," ipinakita ko sa kaniya yung camera ko. Now, I need him to know this. Bawas din 'to sa conscience ko. "...you helped me so I just want to return the favor. She was once my client." I added. Nakatingin lang siya sa camera ko. I handed it to him. "This picture is taken for their marriage proposal thingy, did you--" My eyes grew wider when I saw how the camera my dad gave me fall to the ground... it's pieces flying everywhere. I kneeled down, trying to pick up everything. Every single piece my dad entrusted me... his camera... his promise of coming back to me... the day I was waiting for... it's all gone. Nang mapulot ko yung ibang part na nakita ko, I stood up and faced him. I saw it. He did it. "Why...? Why?! I did nothing to you!" I screamed at his face. Lalong naginit yung loob ko nang makitang walang reaction ang mga mata niya. The hell? Ngayon mo ilabas 'yang different emotions behind your ocean blue eyes. "I don't need to see that," he said with a straight face. His eyes are dark but completely blank. What the hell? It is my fault now? How I regret marveling and losing myself in those eyes. Yes, I don't know you. The one who completely broke my only assurance of dad coming back.