There are only two seasons in the Philippines, its either hot or cold. Pero may mga lugar sa tabi-tabi kung saan madaming puno nang mahogany. And there comes that time of the year when their leaves fall, scatter, make a mess, color the surrondings with brown and red. It makes you feel autumn even though wala sa Pilipinas nun. It makes you feel you are living on another country where four seasons are in cycle. Wow, as in, wow.
 

 

Sa inyo ba? May taglagas din?

 

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As always, seasons come, seasons go. Life goes on. Whenever leaves fall, new leaves are also born. It makes one wonder, how the cycle never ends until you cut the tree down. Pero . . . bakit ako pa? Bakit sa akin pa talaga ina-asa ang magwalis nang bakuran? Hindi ba pwedeng hayaan na lang muna naten silang manlagas kesa walisin maya't maya? 

 

Yes, its a dillema, its my problem. If hindi ko naman wawalisin, I will make someone else suffer (my father). Kung di ako magwawalis, maririndi lang ako sa push notifications (from my mother). So yeah, I oblige. Out of responsibility and also out of compassion na din. Ka-ka-guilty din kase kapag may nakikita kang may taong nagsisipag tapos ikaw nakatunganga lang. (before oo, pero now, ok lang hehe, so bad XD)

 

Tumatanda na kase mga magulang ko, so need kong magsipag? Good thing may tagawalis na kame ngayon (paid). Tumatanda na din kasi ako. Hehe. But I can still remember those years when I was the one in charge of sweeping leaves. The skills I learned, were never lost. And also the attitude. Di na ata maalis sa katawan ko na magwalis kapag may kalat na nakikita (OCD). It was my calling. It was my destiny! lol

 

Anyways . . .

 

 

The wind blew strong at a mid summer day.

The trees began to dance as they mockingly jolt my attention with their confettis.

"We are trees. Look at us. Feel us. Rember us."

Oh boy, here we go again. . . 

 

Equipment

+10 Walis Tingting
+15 Pandakot
 

Event

200% drop rate

 

I treated my chore as an RPG game where I need to gather all the loots. Para lang di ako ma bored. Kesa isipin kong trabaho, why not make it a quest? The reward? An amazing green scenery with +50% buff of self-satisfaction. Its really amazing, the feeling of accomplishment. Your body exercised producing positive chemicals. But just as when you thought that your task is finisged, fate mocks you. I can hear the tress laughing na.

 

Alam mo yung feeling na nagpakapagod ka tapos mauuwi lang sa wala? Patapos na eh. Sisindihan ko na lang yung tumpok ng dahon. Hihithit na sana ako ng yosi, for a "Job Well Done"? Kaso biglang hahangin ng malakas? Wow. (lakas trip nyo pare) Magpapatakan na naman mga dahon. Kakalat yung tumpok na pinaghirapan mong ipunin. F*ck you wind !!! Its like, "what's the point?". We keep on doing repeated things for the sake of what? It will just repeat itself. But what else can we do but to finish the job? Or just quit? 

 

So . . . I kept on grinding. 200% drop rate? Minsan lang to. Hahaha. Wala sa MMORPG nito. lol

 

 

I just told myself ...

Its the nature of the leaves to wither and fall.

Its my job to sweep them all. (pokemon?)

 

After a grueling two and a half hours of non-stop grinding, the sun begins to set. (extend pa po 1hr. . . joke lang) The event is almost finished. Lumalamig na at nagiging banayad ang simoy ng hangin. The air becomes calmer. No more strong winds. Dumidilim na din. (lakas trip lang ang magwalis dis oras ng gabi . . . nakashabu? +100 stamina?) And alas, finally, level up! 

 

Yung makita mong malinis ang paligid nang dahil sa di ka sumuko sa pagwawalis, its a feeling greater than having sex? Why? Because, there's no regret or a feeling of what ifs at the end of the journey. You did your job perfectly. Its so simple yet the feeling of fulfillment is so uplifting. Wala nang kalat sa paligid. Every place is free of fallen leaves. Its magnificent. Its amazing. Kapag nakipag sex ka kase, baka makabuntis or magka STD etc etc .. .. eh kapag naglinis ka ng paligid? Once done, its done. Period. Wala nang lingering feelings. Pulido. Malinis. Oh yeah oh yeah. Tapos mapapaisip ka na lang kung anong ulam. Easy. GGWP

 

 

 

Well, at some point in our lives, we will have the feeling of quitting. Why DO when we can NOT DO? What's the point? Its pointless. It does not even matter because when it ends, it ends. Kahit wala naman tayo gawin, life still goes on. Kahit di ko walisin mga dahon, matutuyo din yan at magiging pataba sa lupa. Bakit pa ako nagpakapagod? Bakit pa ko nagpakahirap? May magwawalis din naman niyan, eventually. 

 

But once I actually did something, and finished it, it all makes sense as to why. Mas sumasarap ang pagkain. Tumpak!

 

 

We may feel in life as if we are not rewarded even if we do all those things we think are good. We may feel neglected by fate, by the heavens, left alone in the vast universe. We did our best and yet why? We may think that why of all people, should we be the ones? To suffer, to pain, to anger, to bitterness. To feel miserable, to anguish and to rage. Why? We seek for answers. But found none. We seek for hope and salvation. But none came. None worthy to ease the pain. If we keep on living, it will just repeat. Non-ending suffering. Forever loneliness.

 

 

Smile.

Just smile.

Sanayan lang yan.

Hindi mo na kaya?

Rest. Pause. Take a breath.

Someday, you will learn and feel, 

that the more LIFE becomes unbearable, 

the more LIFE becomes beautiful.

Kaya, go lang. Walis pa more.

Kahit sandamakmak pa yung dahong manlagas, 

that is LIFE. 

Sadyang ganyan ang buhay.

We adapt to live. We live to adapt. 

We make sense of the nonsense.

AND its better to die, with no regrets.

 

  

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