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It was night. I felt an itch as the mosquitos took a sip of my blood. It was itchy.

I was planning to write this entry short but, it went longer than expected.

I was at a meeting at work. Our manager was absent for a week. She took her vacation. But this will not be about work.

Working for me was ok. It has its perks - cash.

But I would like to share a story about the book I am currently trying to finish.

I decided to change my keyboard from a soft key to a hard mechanical noisy clattering (at least it was LED color) keyboard.
It took some time before I managed to finally get used to it for typing. I used it mostly for gaming.
Its keys were hard. Am I punishing my fingers? Yes. At least my fingers would get exercise.

I seldom rode my bike. I seldom play games. I often find myself adrift - caught within the plots of my book.
It was ok at first but then I realized - I'm forgetting a lot of things.
I'm having short-term memory lapses.

I went to make a cup of coffee. I stirred the cup's content without water.
I went to get a drink. I forgot where I put my phone.
I went outside - only to forget why I went there in the first place.
I lit a cigarette - only to forget that I already am smoking one.
I hope it's just a fleeting moment and not turn into a permanent condition.

Every day, we go on with our lives - not knowing why we do the things we do - we just need to.

And in search of the reasons we live - we get lost.

I just hope I'll be able to finish the book before my time on earth ends.

Five years - I told myself.

Five years to struggle.

But at this point in time - I was glad I was struggling. I need not know the meaning - but I feel complete.

Guess I'm just a masochistic insect lurking on this website.

Ciao. Until. Next time.