Chapter 1: First Love

Memories? I don’t need it. Just let me sleep for eternity, it's all right if morning doesn't come.

Why do people fall in love? I want to know... The secrets of love...

  Since we were little I already have this sealed attachment to her, but I never thought that this feeling would grew on a different level. Yes, my childhood friend Tenshi was my best friend, sister and first love. Ever since kindergarten we are likely to have the same bag and accessories, even hairstyles. Moreover, she was born a month earlier than me so I always call her big sister, she has nothing against it and I think that she finds it cute. Just before high school we decided to buy our new set of bags and accessories. At that time, I noticed that there’s somewhat strange about her. I have a feeling that she’s hiding something from me; I can see it in her eyes. Tenshi never knew about my fascination for her. I was thinking about her, having a boyfriend and leaving me all alone. Yes, I was that kind of selfish, but how in the world can I ever speak my love for her? We’re both girls. I’m frightened she might get angry, confused and thus forget about me. Then graduation day comes, we did have a long chat. I was planning on telling my feelings for her. However, I break off and she unfasten her concealed thought that I felt that day when we bought our bags.   Tenshi: I...I need to tell you something Kai and it’s about school... Kai: Yes big sister, what about school? Tenshi: Well you see, I have been granted a scholarship program on Tokyo and I think we will be separated at the time.   Come to think of it, Tenshi is a perfect girl no one can match her on academics and even on physical activities. Certainly she was the pride of our school, not to mention she was elected president since elementary to Middle school. No wonder such opportunities draw closer to her. Despite the fact that I was shocked about her news I did not show any weakness. Told her that I was really happy for her, immediately then I asked about the details on when she will be taking her depart.

Chapter 2: Red String of Fate

I don’t know if I should’ve met you. I never would want to feel this pounding on my chest. But it’s late now, your strength and gentleness is my weakness. I cried in the corner of the room, endless thoughts flowing, “Why am I hiding inside myself?”

  Thus the day comes that we would be separated, I kept on telling myself that I am prepared but the truth is that I’m not. This heart of mine is going to explode anytime. The doorbell rings, I know that it was Tenshi. I put on our middle school uniform because I could not settle on what should I wear. Surprisingly Tenshi was also wearing the same outfit. We had a little trip to the kitchen before heading to the train station. I prepared a cup of hot milk and buttered bread for both of us. Tenshi wore her usual poker face when she can’t find any words to say. So I tried to open a subject for us to talk to.   Kai: So ah... how’s your last week round trip? Tenshi: ...... Well it was fun, but I think it would be much more enjoyable if you would’ve come with me. Kai: *Blushes Well I...I’m really sorry big sister, my father suddenly wants me to visit him and thus I could’ve not come with you I’m really  sorry. If only I knew I should’ve just convinced you to come with me. Tenshi: Well its fine family’s first always right? *Smiles Kai: Well yes, that is what you always told me though   Tenshi always says that family should always be our main concern. Misunderstanding, disputes and fall outs have to be taken care of as soon as possible. Tenshi lost her mother while they are in the midst of a mix up. I assume that’s the reason behind it; she still carries a burden deep inside her heart. Out of the blue she then grabs my hand saying “Let’s go.” I was expecting some indirect kiss to happen but it did not, what a shame. On the way to the station I kind of wished that the time would just stop for a bit and let us be in the moment. Every single step is as heavy as a raw boulder. I think I cannot continue anymore.   Tenshi: Well, I’ll be away for a year so you take care of yourself and don’t mess with your studies okay? Kai: Yes...Yes I..I’ll do my best Tenshi: That’s the spirit. Onee’s not worried anymore.   She then holds my hand, it felt like I never want to let go. I want this to stay forever, I don’t want her to leave me.   We then enter the train station. Still have an hour before the train arrives so I made up my mind, I’m going to tell Onee. I hope that my feelings would reach her.   Kai: Onee... I-   Just when I was about to say it. Tenshi: Hey Kai, you know high school would be much more challenging and life changing. If someone falls for you, tell me okay? Kai: But Onee I need to focus more on my studies, you know that my grades last year were not that good right? And what's more is that you will not be here to help me. Tenshi: Don’t worry you can always call. Communication’s not down. Anxiety could trigger stress.   The train arrived earlier than we’d be expecting, I’ve convinced myself to say this. It’s is now or never. But then I started shaking and could not find the words to say. If I were a guy I would have just ask her to elope with me. I’m devastated to see the train nearing the station I don’t know what to do. The feelings that I have long kept turned into hurtful tears, but I must not be selfish and hence be happy that onee would now have a greater chance to excel. The train door opens and I assisted Tenshi to board, she then hugged me tight, my heart is bursting out with sadness, in consequence I drove out the words.   Kai: Onee I... I love you Tenshi: I love you too Kai. Onee loves you too Kai: I...I   She then kissed me on the forehead. My tears then impede, I know that she loves me back but only as her little sister. But thinking on the bright side, I should not let happiness subside now that I know that onee will always be there for me. Therefore, I just have to keep my true feelings hidden.   Before she heads off, I made a promise.   Kai: Onee I... I promise to follow you I... I will do my best to get my grades high enough to obtain the same scholarship that you have. I will follow you to Tokyo! Tenshi: Well I’ll be expecting that. I shall be waiting for you then.   Before the train door closes she teases me by biting my ear with her lips.  

Chapter 3: Student Council

Seasons came after another... I don’t want to forget about... I always see you in my dreams please don’t leave me, please....

  Time flies by so fast and I have taken onee’s slot as the school President. Made friends with every single soul around and somewhat increased my level of confidence. I have been a member of the student council for quite some time and I can say that these individuals are one of the best things I have. First, Vice President Kylie, the wealthy daughter of the proprietor of the academy and niece of the school principal; Then we have the energetic Secretary named Joana, the groups classic entertainer. Next in line is Steph, the Treasurer who is always keen on talking about numbers and mathematical bits and pieces. Lastly, our Historian Jennifer, photography is her passion, always doing and getting something on film. Sorry for the rush introductions cause currently I feel disheartened and they all knew it. Onee sent an email to me with an attached photo of her with a guy claiming to be her boyfriend. If jealousy could take someone’s life I would probably be lifeless by now. I have to know who that guy is, summer vacation is nearing and for a little more time, I can be with her again.   Kylie: Hey guys! Check this mag out Steph: Sorry, have no idea about such publication and besides that cost me three days of allowance. Joana: Oh! I have heard from my friend that that magazine is all about cross dressing. Where boys would dress up as girls and then girls would look like boys. Let me see! Let me see! Jennifer: Well our generation is evolving, nothing new about that. In fact I have experienced shooting a male model fully clad as a woman and well it was kind of cool. Kylie: Hey President! Would you stop spacing out?! We all know that you missed your “Onee” so much and knowing that she’s having an affair with someone is a grand shock for you, but you should be expecting that. Kai: It’s not like I don’t wish for her to have one. I’m just thinking that it’s pretty early for her to have one. Ugh... I need to visit her, just a glimpse of her then I’m off. Joana: Looks like someone’s getting jelly *laughs Kylie: Well you should have just told us earlier. I have something in mind. Steph: What is it Kylie? Jennifer: Spill it. Kylie: Let us all go to Tokyo on summer vacation. I would be the one handling the expenses. Jennifer: Oh really Vice President? This is so cool! I would gladly go with you. I need to set up my photography kit for our summer vacation! Joana: Yahoo! Count me in! Count me in! I’m so excited. Steph: Well..... If the whole gang is in, kindly add me up then. Kai: But guys I don’t want Onee to see me this soon. Well I want to see her but I don’t think it’s the right moment. Kylie: Then we should just go cross dressing. Don’t worry I’ll handle everything. Joana: Oh this would be fun. Summer cross dressing student council fight oh! Steph: Well it ain’t that bad to try something new right? Jennifer: Well what do this would be more of a hell of a summer vacation. Kai: But... Kylie: I don’t want no for an answer President. Kai: Well umm Kylie I... I Kylie: Ok! I’m going to have our transportation and accommodation sets reserve, so let us all gather to the train station on summer. And thus the Student Council would be on atrip to Tokyo while cross dressing. This would be a heck of a summer with these four girls. Wait for me Onee. I will see you soon.